Second Betrayal

Now it is 11 April 2006. I am in a foriegn land, meeting new friends and learning new stuffs. However, betrayal never seems to leave mi behind. It is like following mi everywhere i go. Why do people say one thing and always do another thing. Don't understand why people i cared about like to lie to mi. Am i not untrustworthy? Tell mi what to do God. I really dun know what to do. Feel so lost and losing hope. Need some guidance but should i turn to? Should i turn to YOU, God? To many, you are just a religion, to others, you are their life. What are you to mi then? Can i really trust my life decision to you?Please give mi a sign. Whatever it may be.