Monday, April 23, 2007

Great For Downloading Old Games

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Good Weekend or Bad Weekend

A sudden and heavy snowstorm hit Buffalo on Oct 12 at abt 2pm. It started small and it continued to grow in size until in the night when it stopped for a while before resuming for the night. This heavy storm has caused the whole city of Buffalo to be out of power for 2 days. From Friday wee morning all the way to the earliest resume of power on Saturday wee morning. During the heavy snowstorm, i was working at the school library from 11pm to 8am. But i couldnt go back home due to the snowstorm so i continued working until the next day 4pm. In the morning, i and my fellow collegues took some photos in the snow. Hee Hee

Monday, April 17, 2006

Another week has passed. And it seems like my semseter is ending. Chances are i will be going be to singapore for the summer holidays as i cant get a summer job here. This beginning of a new week is the start of my brand new life. A life of ups and downs again as the exams and tests are going to start pouring in. This will keep mi concentrated on my studies instead of any other stuff. haahaa. Hope to see all my friends once again when i am back in singapore

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Today was quite a relaxing day for mi. Got a class cancelled and went to play basketball after that. Enjoy dinner with a couple of my church friends but still feel a bit like an outsider. After that, when i came back. I realised that my god sister is still going with my friend that i objected to being with. Even after our chat, she appears to know what she is doing but the actions that are taken by her dun seem to be of that. Today was also raining, it was like the sky was telling mi that something bad is happening around. Didnt really think abt it until i came back to the room when i found out that they were still going out for dinner. Hope that i will be able to talk to her regarding this matter tomorrow if we are still going out.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Had a chat with my god sister during dinner time without her so called bf around. We cleared the misunderstanding between us. Also realized that she is falling deeper into the trap that she had create. Feeling worried for her but cant do anything about it. Hope that she will give up on this guy but I don't think it is possible at the moment. Dun know what will it take to make her give up. Dun wan to crash her, but I feel that this guy is not trustworthy enough for her. He already have a gf in Malaysia but still wan to go after my sister. He claimed that he will ditched the other gal back in Malaysia but he is now with my sister. Also dont know how to talk to my sister about this matter. Feel like telling her not to go into this relationship but i must respect her decision. The guy just sent her to her car but almost an hour gone and he is still not back yet. must be somewhere making out. Feel that this should not be happening to my sister but i cant do anything about it. So sad. Sigh. God help mi. Show mi the right way.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Now in class, not really paying attention to the lecturer cos got a lot of things on my mind. Still thinking how to solve my dilemna. However, it seems like i may find my answer to my question soon. Been thinking that, since i am born a loner(only child in my family), from now on, i will be a loner throughout my life. Friends come and go, promises are made and meant to be broken. I will always be alone for my life until i can find my new family, which i dont think that i will find it soon. So i got to take life as it comes and work hard at it.

Thinking of an escape

Cant sleep. My roommate talking to his gf. And his gf is my god sister but he doesnt know it. Now that my god sister is his gf, but she didnt tell mi. I know abt this matter from him and i am so angry cos my god sister keep saying that there is nothing between them. Keep saying that she has her principles that she will not be with a guy who already has a gf. In the end, i found out that she is with him liao. Damn pissed. But what can i do? Cant do anything abt it since she want to be dishonest abt it. She keep telling mi that she will be there for mi and will always help mi. But actually, she is just humoring mi. Just trying to make mi feel better. But to no effect, now that i have found out abt this matter. I have been asking her all along but she just refused to admit to it. Dont know how should i face her now, after knowing that she has lied to mi. Been doing a lot of thinking, should i go back to singapore and not come back to the US. At least in Singapore, i have my own circle of friends to back mi up and at least i have my family with mi. Down here, i feel so lonely, so left out. Can anyone tell mi what to do? Give mi some advice.

Need help

Why am i feeling sad? People dont trust mi. What should i do to gain their trust? Am i really a jerk in the making? Am i really that bad? Am i really that a jackass that everyone hates me? I feel so lonely here. Can someone lend mi a helping hand? REALLY need help here

Second Betrayal

Now it is 11 April 2006. I am in a foriegn land, meeting new friends and learning new stuffs. However, betrayal never seems to leave mi behind. It is like following mi everywhere i go. Why do people say one thing and always do another thing. Don't understand why people i cared about like to lie to mi. Am i not untrustworthy? Tell mi what to do God. I really dun know what to do. Feel so lost and losing hope. Need some guidance but should i turn to? Should i turn to YOU, God? To many, you are just a religion, to others, you are their life. What are you to mi then? Can i really trust my life decision to you?Please give mi a sign. Whatever it may be.

Monday, August 23, 2004

A Betrayal

Why is it in this world that people like to lie. People who say one thing and do other thing. Asking for help on one hand and still knowing the danger , wants to jump in. I dont noe what to do. i wan to help tat person. tat person tell mi that she has already given up but she still show tat she want to be his girlfriend. asking mi to help her wif her debts and i still stupidly agreed. am i stupid or wat? am i tat gd to be taken advantage of?? am i really wat people call a pig head